I am Back in Korea.

Yes, I have been back in Korea for a couple of weeks with this point and with my girlfriend coming to the States, coming back and everything I have not found the time to post. I have managed to send out one mass email so at least everyone knows I am okay.

I am doing great, just busy of course and happy to be back. First, my new apartment is 1000x better than my last place. It has three or two and a half rooms maybe and a more western style bathroom which is nice. I am on the third floor in a big apartment complex and have a little terrace where the washing apartment is and such. I have cable, but I haven't watched any TV since I got it last week.

My job is at a prestigious kind of famous academy in Korea. The pay is a lot more so that is a good thing. The hours are better but longer days so kind of tiring. I teach preschoolers in the morning and they are very smart. Like able to write sentences and read most of them and identify the different long and short vowels. I am teaching my one class all four verses of "Here Comes Santa Clause" which they will sing with actions from memory at the Christmas Party on Christmas Eve. They are very cute! Then in the afternoon I teach elementary school children who have a high level of English or who have studied in America or somewhere and then returned to Korea. So things are looking a lot better this time around.

Of course I see my girlfriend everyday and she is here a lot so that is great! Officially it has been 91 days now but we have been seeing each other since the end of June. I will be very sad when she leaves for Germany at the end of January I guess, but at least we will have Christmas together this year!

My girlfriend has gone back to Korea and got there early early this morning. I leave Monday morning and she will pick me up at the airport when I get there on Tuesday night. My family loves her and they don't care that she is older or that she is Korean, but maybe my parents wonder about us. Why does her family and everyone at church still not know about us?? Why do we have to keep it a secret?? Is it so wrong for us to be together?? When are we going to get married?? Are we just friends or do I really love her and want to be with her forever?? What?? Why can't I pressure her more to tell her family and for us to be out in the especially before she goes to Germany?? Is she the boss??



Yes, it is true I will feel better when her family and other people know about us, but I am okay. I have a strong mind and even if we have to keep this secret forever I can be okay, right because of love?? Love is enough and being together wherever that may be. Should I think more about my family and how they want us to live in America again someday especially if we have children??



These past two weeks when she was here was a very special time for both of us. . . but we still have our obstacles to get through too.

I'm Happy!

Of course, I am happy because my girlfriend came to the US from Korea to visit me! She leaves on Friday morning very early after a little bit longer than two weeks. Then, I will go back to Korea next Monday for my new job starting soon. So, far the time time has gone by very fast and we are trying to make the most out of every moment. I am trying not to be one of those people that once they get a girlfriend drop off the planet, but to some regard I feel like that is me a little bit. At the same time, I am not going to make any apologies about that though because I am happy and I am in love!

I will try to share more details later about everything. . . but just letting you know I am still alive and have not forgotten this blog!!

So, life is still not that exciting at the moment. . .but my girlfriend is probably going to come visit me from October 31st till November 16th. This is kind of a big deal and very exciting! We have had some issues with this long distance relationship since I have came back. Things have gotten better and I am hoping everything works out with the travel plans and such. She got a visa already and has reserved plane tickets on the internet. Anyway, so I am a little bit happier these days and then go back to Seoul on November 19th.

In a Slump. .

I don't know if I am experiencing reverse culture-shock blues or what, but since I have came back from Lawrence especially I haven't felt like doing much or seeing anyone. Not that there are many people here that I am still friends with, only about one person. I am sleeping a lot more, but I still feel pretty exhausted all the time. Food isn't the same, or doesn't taste the same, so I feel like I am not eating that much or I feel too full all the time. When I feel like going somewhere that I want to go, it last for only about two minutes. Then I realize I would go by myself or with my parents (which I don't always want), I don't have a lot of money right now and my parents aren't going to give me any. Sometimes, I think what about getting a part-time job, but who is going to hire me for five weeks before I go back to Korea??

I miss my girlfriend a lot, and talking on the phone twice a day and everything else is never enough or not like being there. I hope maybe she comes in November for a couple of days. The distance sometimes only makes me worry more about our relationship and unsure about everything. I know this is probably normal to some extent, I admire people who can pull off the long distance relationship thing.

So please if you have any suggestions for me about what to do to not feel lonely, sad, or whatever all the time!! Other than that, I just stay at home and watch TV, study Korean or German or for the GRE, read, or go outside sometimes for a walk or with the dog. I pretty much only go out with my parents for lunch or dinner or something.

So, I haven't sat down in a while to write anything for this blog. . . .well it has been about a month.



I am back in America now, well until about November 25th and then I will go back to Seoul for my next teaching position. I am excited about that, but I will miss my little brother's wedding next year. I would like to go, of course, but that might not be possible. It is for my future though and my life decisions.

My girlfriend and I. . . well this is the most complicated relationship ever! I don't know how much longer it is going to go, which is very sad, but we will hope!

Other than that, I am going up to Lawrence tomorrow to see some friends and hang out for a few days. Anyway, so my life is as crazy as ever, so stay tuned. I'll try to keep this updated when I can.

That's all for now ~

I Will Come Back to Korea!

Why?? Because we are a couple!!! Yes, after everything that has happened and we have been through she does indeed want me like I have wanted her. It is too late to cancel though my return to the States in October. The best we can pray and hope for is that I find a job before I leave and get that straightened out and come back by the first of November. My life has quite possibly been rather dramatic lately, but now I am very happy. I just have a little stress about the job situation because if I don't find something than that will not be good. But~WOW! I also have stress too because my parents maybe are happy for me but for sure they don't want me to come back here. . . they think I am wasting my life here!

In other news, pray for me to prepare to leave somehow even though I have no time with everything to really do that. Also, for as much energy and power as God can give me maybe because I am lucky to get fours of sleep a night. . . but maybe my mind and body is changing to get used to that because now six hours or more is a lot!!

That is all for now!

I need to make a better understanding of some things I said in my last blog post. First, I am very sad about leaving Korea for many reasons, but that does not mean by any means that I am knocking my American friends or do not want to see you guys. I just don't have any real foreign friends here in Korea, all my friends are Korean. That was my choice, but I shouldn't worry about coming back there and not being able to connect and talk to all of you guys and feel nervous about that because you are my friends!!! That is the important part.

Right now, I don't know but I might come back to Korea for sure. I don't know at all actually, but there is a good job possibility that I could get. At the same time, I don't know if I can though because then I will see this woman that I havel been seeing and will continue to see until I leave. Last night, was a night of truth and realized that I need to change my strong feelings and forget that I was ever in love with her even after two months. I can't really forget or change so easily, but I will have to. Pretty much it isn't possible for us in this culture with her being older and me being older and we are different people. And even if I do come back to Korea things won't change and she might move to Germany in the next three to six months. I would love for it to be possible, but I don't know that even if she ever could have feelings for me in that way. Last night, I didn't really sleep and got home at 2:30. I don't regret anything that has happened though and last night was very beautiful because we ended up talking for about an hour outside at this beautiful place with a beautiful view of the city and great weather.

Going Home. . . .

Yes, you can hear it first on this blog that I will be coming back to the US around the second or third week in October. I don't know the exact date yet, but should soon when I have a plane ticket confirmed. This is really hard for me because I am very upset and sad right now about leaving Korea, but I decided yesterday and told my work to go ahead and get a plane ticket. I have been praying for so long for the job situation to work out, maybe about the woman I have been seeing to become more concrete, and I feel comfortable here. I made it up in my mind to plan on staying and of course right when I do that, that is when God says NO!!

I don't know what I am going to do next with my life. I am really scared and nervous about coming back to the States right now. Maybe I am not American anymore and act more like a Korean person, so people are going to think I am really strange maybe. Plus, I talk like a Korean! It will be an adjustment I think, especially since all my friends are Koreans here. Please pray for me to start preparing for this big change!!

Right now, I am possibly thinking about traveling and taking a trip sometime after I return. I want very much still to go to Spain, but we'll see. . . I only think this now. I can't see myself staying in Missouri for too long at my parents' house or even in the States for that long. I could still come back to Korea, who knows, but maybe try to get my Spanish back in gear and go somewhere with that.

There it is. . . the countdown begins till I leave Korea indefinitely! Only 19 work days for me, my last day is September 28th!!!

Boring Week ~maybe??

Yes, my friend who I am still seeing quit a bit left early this morning for Thailand till Saturday for a church mission trip. This week I will be praying a lot for that of course and thinking about that a lot. I am doing my best to eat a lot this week and work out for muscle and weight gain. However, it could be a little boring this week without seeing her every morning, talking on MSN usually, the text messages throughout the day, and talking usually for at least an hour on the phone after work. I actually find myself feeling kind of down about it, but I know she is coming back and is on mission trip, so I should be happy she is doing God's will. I can't really let anyone know about that at the church either since we aren't a couple and she doesn't like gossip. But that is another much longer story that I will not be sharing on this blog.

In other news, my last day at my current job will be Friday September 28th which is coming up very quickly! I have to get working on finding another position in some academy sooner than later!

The weather is miserably humid and hot at times and August seems to be the rainy season not June and July. My apartment is unbearable at times and I only have one fan. I have mold growing on the fans and can't seem to keep things clean or dry enough ever. I have gotten used to it, but I hope after this my so-so living conditions will be over!

Pray for the mission trip to Thailand this week and that I don't have a heat stroke in my own home!!!

Due for a Post. . . Perhaps

Let me just say that life has been rather crazy lately, crazier than usual and that makes my life pretty stressful at times with many ups and downs. I will do my best to summarize a little bit. . .

First, the whole job situation. . . well a couple of weeks ago they dropped another bomb on me at work. They said that our academy is moving to a smaller building during the vacation and then I had the choice to stay the last two months or just "call it a day" and leave after vacation. You got to be kidding me ~ that left me with like no planning time or time to think. I almost had a nervous breakdown that week and also at the beginning of last week. I felt like I was being push out or something and wasn't even sure if I wanted to stay if the whole thing was going under.

The end of that week we had a company party/dinner the usual thing. I didn't drink a lot and got kind of criticised by my supervisor a little for not drinking more and I am too shy. He said many things to me or about me that kind of hurt and I didn't have a good feeling about him especially that night. Then he told me that there is another academy that teaches kindergarten and the supervisor there wants me. I was like okay, I could try for the interview and see what happens. My supervisor was like, no problem you could start there in August, make more money, and have a better schedule. I thought sure, that sounds good maybe.

That next Monday morning I went in for an interview there, and that was not a good interview at all. I waited at the place for maybe close to thirty minutes to come and talk to me. They were not very friendly or warm to me, I thought the whole time "I can't do this." Even though they were like the sooner you can start the better. I haven't heard anything else about that.

Anyway, so I am back to where I started and ended up deciding to stay the last two months and hopefully find another position somewhere by September or October. I am not for sure yet or not if I will be home at all between jobs or not, but we'll see. Right now, the idea of going back to the States makes me a little nervous.

I am still seeing this woman that I like and that has been taking up most of my free time. It hasn't all been fun though and light at times I feel very stressed out about the whole thing because of communication and if it is actually going anywhere or not. Last week. after I was very stressed out last Monday after the interview and got kind of depressed, Tuesday was a holiday. I ended up going with her to Incheon a city by the coast about an hour away to visit her university friend, met her husband, and two very cute sons. We hung out with them during the day and then drove to a beach and talked and walked around a bit. Then we came back to Seoul, but we hit a cultural difference that almost stopped the evening. . . a funny story now. Anyway, we went to dinner and then to the Han River and a beautiful park and walked around some more and had coffee. I learned many things about her mind for me that day ~ maybe.

I feel like God is blessing this relationship and I am very surprised by that, but need to keep seeking Him and His direction of this. It is still very soon, but I know she cares and worries about me a little. We just have to still improve communication differences at times and cultural issues.

I will tell you more about her. .. . she is nine or ten years older than me and has her Ph.D in nutrition (primarily Eastern/Korean cooking and such). She works at a university research institutue and runs a functional food restaurant or is a manager there at a hospital. She gives presentations sometimes for people like this Saturday for women about ostheperosis. She is also in very good shape and likes sports like basketball, etc. I see her usually every morning at church, but I go to pray. We talk throughout the day. Oh another big thing, maybe for the next three weeks she is appearing on a TV show on Friday mornings on MBC, which could be compared to NBC or ABC in the States. She is working with a team of her, a doctor, and a trainer on a project to help an obese mother and son lose weight in a month. She is doing the nutrion aspect of it. If the mother and son reach their goal they win a trip to Thailand. Anyway, so she is pretty impressive. What is she doing with me. . . .?? God is blessing me a lot maybe ~~~ if only I can feel more secure about this relationship and its possibility of going somewhere.

I go to Japan on Saturday morning till the following Friday, and I almost don't want to go. I feel like it is going to be more tiring than relaxing. Especially, since I have no plan for Tokyo and don't even know where I am going to sleep. I will probably be alone a lot too in this huge city where I don't speak the language, and it is super expensive. It will be an experience/adventure too. . . I hope to take a lot of pictures!

That is all for now. . . any comments or questions?

An Expensive Night

Yesterday, I met the woman I like at about 4:15. The place I planned for dinner didn't open for dinner until 6, so we went to Burger King and ate chicken tenders and talked there. Anyway, then we had an adventure trying to find the restaurant, that was entertaining. We got there and had a huge traditional Korean meal in this traditional Korean house. . . maybe about five courses. Needless, to say for the two of us that cost me 120.000 won or about 130-140 USD probably. Then, we had to make a detour and go to a place where she had to meet a man for her job giving a seminar for like ten minutes. Anyway, then we went to the Han River and walked and sat down in a bench and talked some more there and left almost at 11. Then she dropped me off at what we thought was a subway station but turned out to be just an underground walkway. That turned into a mini-ordeal, but is funny now maybe. I finally got to the subway station and went the wrong way of course and finally got to the place where I was to transfer at like 11:45, too late. I had to take a taxi home which cost about 13 USD maybe. It was a good night, I also gave her three yellow roses, a book of English Expressions, and a narrow black neck tie. I told her to wear it she would look good in it, make a fashion trend.

I also went to the Korean church early today at 9, to go to the high school student service and meet her students. I ended up going to the class and talking some and I guess I will be helping out with that from now on. They were very excited to see me and want me to come. After that, we talked and ate lunch in the church dinning room or temperorary one anyway.

I would say we are a couple. . . she likes me anyway.

Still Exciting. . .

I haven't been able to say 100% yet in my mind, or on facebook that I am officially in a relationship yet, it is still too early. (Because we all know facebook makes everything official when you put it on that. hahaha)

We usually see each other ever morning at church, then talk on the computer, then text messages while I am at work and then talk on the phone for anywhere from 20 minutes to about an hour before we go to bed. Saturday night we are going out again and I am trying to make a great plan that will be fun.

This morning she invited me to go to Namdaemun with her, a big old market where she needed to buy some things for her job. Anyway, another girl went with us from church too, which was fun though. We did that, ate, and had smoothies at Smoothie King and then I had to come home and she had to go to work. It was a lot of fun though and sharing an umbrella (oohh. . . ) haha~! It was a lot of fun though.

Footprints the company that I got this job here in Korea emailed me back today saying that it should be easy to find me another position in Seoul starting in October or November. They said I won't even have to leave unless I want to, but would need to go to Japan to get my visa renewed. What does everyone think?? Should I try to make it home for at least a couple of weeks in October or stay here and maybe hope for a long break over Christmas when I might be able to come home or something.

Any thoughts??

Another Nice Date Night!

Well, yesterday ended up being kind of crazy and another good night with the girl I like. I was supposed to plan it this week, but my plan wasn't exactly amazing maybe and didn't think it through enough. I did give her another one of my CDs that she likes, but I wanted to give her a flower but didn't do that. I met her at the subway station in her car and we went to a Korean Family Traditional Food Restaurant that was nice, but in a very busy area. Lots of traffic, so first problem right there: traffic on Saturday night.

The next part of my plan included coming back here to my hometown or neighborhood and showing her where I work and then walking around the Han River. She didn't seem to warm to this idea, she was like lets go to Namsan Tower. I was like sure, why didn't I suggest that Namsan Tower is a very beautiful place where you can go and see all of Seoul from up on like a mountain and there are places to sit and so fourth.

We went up to Namsan Tower and of course there were tons of couples. We walked up the mountain and then stayed there for a while and sat down and talked on a bench for probably maybe two hours we were there at least. It was fun and I am positive she has to be interested in me. Anyway, then I walked down and I was like lets get ice cream or coffee or something. Good idea ~ but because of parking we can't just go anywhere. We went up by Korea University and ended up at this like gourmet ice-cream place. It was like 9:00 at that point and she kept saying how late it was and we would only stay maybe 15 minutes. We were there for almost two hours and at the end were looking at some like women's fashion magazine talking about what we find pretty, style, etc. The ice cream was good, the first time I ever had sweet potato ice cream, sweet potato is very popular here. She wanted to get wine too, but I was like wine and sweet potato don't mix, she said I had a prejudice. . . haha!

The more and more I hang out with her and get to know her, I am completely surprised why she is interested in me or how she likes me. She is older, has a Ph.D, good at sports, knows teakwando like a black belt, has wrote her first book this year for people who do taekwando about how to lose weight and have a good body like through nutrition. I imagine her type to be like some athletic guy with a lot of muscles or something. . . so what is she doing being interested in me.

Okay, I have to admit the language is a barrier sometimes, but not bad enough to call it quits. We can communicate and I think we are learning how to be better communicators through this. There is also like a spark, like a chemistry between us that we just know. . . it is amazing, and can't help but think I am in over my head!

We still aren't an official couple, but I am pretty confident and saying that we are dating! The culture difference is a little bit hard and confusing too to figure out, but I think this is going somewhere. Unless she wakes up one day, and realizes I am a lot younger than her, not as smart or athletic as her. At the same time, I have to stay positive and confident about this too.

I wonder if it is a good thing if I feel so happy and excited about this, but at the same time feel like at any moment I could wake up and realize this was one big dream??

At this point, I am not going to change my relationship status on facebook because I don't want to ruin it. . . but if there was a choice of "dating someone" that would be me right now.

What do you guys think??

What is This??

I find myself thinking lately what is happening with me. This woman I like is causing me to feel pretty crazy! I have not slept a lot a couple of nights because of some cliff hanger conversations through text message. Going from feeling like there is no hope and that she doesn't like me to pretty sure she is interested, but mad at myself for getting so worked up over it because what if nothing happens. We text a lot through the day and usually in the mornings before I go to work we talk on MSN for about an hour. I find myself getting nervous and worried that something happened or maybe she doesn't like me if I don't hear anything after a while.

She has matched me as far as being a competitor in this wild psychological ride I have been on. It's like she almost wants me to tell her "I think you are beautiful, smart, your English is good ~ why worry about it."Which I have gone way out on my limb on this one and it is so exciting but at the same time very scary because she is so good at playing the game too, or at least I call it a sort of game. Like this Saturday evening I am hoping we go on another date and she said yes, but now she is like maybe, I don't know yet. But since I told her I would plan it she keeps asking about my plan, or "what is your good plan?" Tomorrow I made a card, or invitation sort of thing. . . so I am hoping that takes out the maybe and she tells me for sure yes, I am going.

I can't believe I have let myself get so worked up over this. . . but I kind of hope she is a little bit worked up about me too. It is so exhilarating, nerving, exciting, a happy feeling that is getting harder and harder to control. . . .

I am going insane!

A Very Nice Date Story!

No, this is not "A Dating Story" on TLC. . . but I did have a very good date Saturday evening, maybe the best or one of the best I have ever been on, not that I date a lot. So, there isn't a lot to compare it to. . .

Anyway, Saturday evening I met the woman I like at a subway station well actually outside, she picked me up in her car. Anyway, we went up by the university she went to and works at and we went to dinner at a Korean restaurant. We ate a very spicy pork dish, which was very good and talked and so on. It was a good time.

Then we went to the University which was very pretty and it was a very beautiful night with a nice cool breeze. We went to this one place, building called Peace Place which is an opera house, and it was beautiful. We walked around and took some pictures of me and then a couple or tried to take a couple "self-ca" pictures with her handphone but there was a lot of laughing and joking doing this.

We drove around some more and she showed me some sights on campus. I learned she already has her Ph.D. which was quit a shock. Immediately my mind brought up my stereotypical views and ideas about people with their Ph.D's. (Mind you there is nothing wrong with them ~ and I applaud those very smart people.) But I do have to admit I can't help but have the view of professors who have no fashion sense or personality outside of their area of interest, and are in general kind of cold people. I know not all of them are like this ~ for example the social welfare professors some were very cool people. But I have met some that meet these stereotypical views. So, don't hold it against me. But anyway, this woman is very beautiful (my opinion), smart, fashionable and in shape. Her first major was physical education and her other degree is in nutrition.

After going to Peace Place guess what she happened to have in her trunk and what we ended up doing for a while. We played basketball or shot the ball around, and she was much better than me maybe. At one point I ran all the way down the hill to get the ball that bounced off the court. It was a lot of fun though and hot, I had to take off my shirt and only wear my T-shirt I got so sweaty. We had fun doing that though. . . .

Then we got into her car and she didn't know where the parking ticket or the permit to be on campus was in her car. We maybe looked for a good ten minutes and got out of the car and everything, I finally found it on the floor. That was a bit amusing. Then she dropped me off from the subway station from there and it took me about an hour to get home. It was a pretty good date in three hours I would say.

Today after church. . . not at church we didn't get a chance to really talk or say anything to each other. I met her and another friend at McDonalds near the church in a shopping center by the subway station. Of course we didn't eat anything, I gave her one of my CDs that I think she would like. . . she did of course!^-^ I met another woman from church too, who she is friends with and then my friend came that is my age because we went to dinner. My friend was like, "her, she is an old woman!"

For me, though age has never crossed my mind. I think she is very beautiful and looks quit young and if we like each other, who cares?? I mean it isn't like she is so old that it is like disgusting that I would consider her. Does anyone else have some strong opinions or reasons though why I shouldn't be happy with how this is going and not date her?? Anyone, please speak up and I will consider your opinion rather or not has anything to do with my own decisions. . . probably not.

Good weekend! (I also saw Oceans 13 - I liked it and found it amusing!)

Thanks for a couple of people letting me know that they are still reading this blog.. . . it makes me a little bit more encouraged to keep writing. Also, the few of you that are fortunate to read this blog, know how I sometimes portray a more personal and different side of things then I do in my emails to the masses. So, I will keep on because I like to write.



Remember the woman I told you about in the last blog?? It is still going and going well I think. I actually might be getting a little bit crazy over the whole thing, but she definitely seems to be interested in me too. We talk in the morning usually if she is on MSN messenger at work in the morning and I am at home for a while. If not, we usually send text messages throughout the day in conversation or what have you. (I have even forgotten to shave the last two days because I have been so wrapped up in talking to her. . . ^^) Tonight, she told me she felt a little down because of all her stress from work and stuff so I sent her a picture of me through the phone. I think it was good because she liked it. I will see her in the morning at the pray service at 6:30, but unfortunately she has to work tomorrow, give a lecture.

I am pretty busy and tired myself. I worked out everyday this week. . . ^^ I hope I am getting stronger and a better body. Work was work, but I have some crazy students sometimes, but it's fun! This week has been very hot and humid at times though and with no air con in my apartment sometimes it isn't too fun with only a fan. In general, I am feeling pretty happy, excited, and nervous about life right now and what is happening! ^--^

Does anyone still read this blog?? Or are my posts just going up there somewhere in the Internet black hole with the rest of the useless stuff up. Let me know. . . because there is some exciting stuff possibly happening in my life and I want some of you to know about it!!!

My contract at my little academy or my so called job is only 12 months instead of 15 supposedly. So, that will end around the beginning of October I guess, and at that point I will probably be heading back to the States for 2-3 weeks before I head back hopefully with a better academy with a better schedule, and some more money. Right now, yes, I am thinking I am going to stay in Korea for another year!
I know that is kind of a big step and decision to make, but it is only one more year.

I have become very interested and someone that goes to the church I go to, and I think she is quit possibly interested in me too. I will keep you posted, but just know for now she is very beautiful, a nutrionist, very smart speaks English, German, and Korean, and loves God! We'll see, I will definitely let everyone know if somehow I end up with a girlfriend, or in Korea we would say "if I make a girlfriend." hahah!

Let me know ~ if anyone is out there reading this please. . . else I might stop this blog forever!

Dropping Bombs!

My boss informed me tonight in the middle of a class that I will be leaving soon because my year is almost up in October! But wait a second didn't I sign a fifteenth month contract, so that gives me till December right?? I didn't really get to talk to him about it, but I said is my contract 15 or 12 month, he said 12. That means it will end at the beginning of October ~ ~~what?!!?

I only have three and a half months left on this contract instead of six and a half! I was using that extra three months as a cushion to figure out what is next. I was even sure that after December I would be ready to leave Korea to something else. However, now that I realize that it is so close that I could possibly leaving Korea forever it is quit upsetting and stressful. I don't know if I can leave here yet, after only one year I need more time! I don't know, but I need to decide within the next two months probably what to do or sooner so I can get things in order for what is next for me. I don't know if I can leave Korea though. . . God has really blessed me here and I am just starting to feel comfortable and things are starting to go well and look up and up. . . .

AAHHHH!!!! What will I decide to do???

Stay tuned. . . this will probably get interesting!

Yeah for Holidays that Fall on Wednesdays!

Memorial Day in Korea is June 6th, which happens to be Wednesday. It is good and bad that it falls on Wednesday too bad it isn't a Friday or Monday or else it could be a three day weekend and I could go visit Japan or something. Anyway, but the nice thing it breaks up the week nice and neat. Also, I don't have any plans so I can sleep in as long as I want tomorrow for the first time in a long time without any obligations or other plans.

I am pretty tired though because I got less than six hours of sleep last night before I got up and went to church by 6:30 to pray. It was a good morning though and I felt very refreshed after that and one guy bought kimbap for breakfast. . . yummy! Anyway, another side note. . . it isn't the main reason I go to church that early at all, but the woman that I like goes every morning. She is an elementary school teacher and a couple of years older than me and is a very nice, joyful person. She must know that I am interested in her, but I don't know if she knows how to answer me. Her English is getting a lot better though since I first met with her and another friend maybe a month ago. She must be studying or trying more or something because we can talk to each other now. I asked her to have a cup of coffee with me on Monday, but she is going with a church friend tomorrow to play in another city in the East of Korea. Her church friend is another woman, but when she told me her name on the bus today, which is 희미, and it sounded like "he me". I was like "he?" and know it is a girl, she kind of smiled when I asked that. I am praying about this and who knows maybe she is praying about me too.

That is a big secret - so ssh- - only one of my friends knows that here. I have a lot of secrets here because it seems to be a big deal, people talk too much here!

Other than that, I am doing much better this week in everything. I have worked out everyday so far and seem to be getting back into it, at least I hope so. I am spending more time with God and in His word and really have a desire for it. Work is going better and seems more fun, especially today even after I should've been more stressed when they told me more students left.

That is all for now. . .