I need to make a better understanding of some things I said in my last blog post. First, I am very sad about leaving Korea for many reasons, but that does not mean by any means that I am knocking my American friends or do not want to see you guys. I just don't have any real foreign friends here in Korea, all my friends are Korean. That was my choice, but I shouldn't worry about coming back there and not being able to connect and talk to all of you guys and feel nervous about that because you are my friends!!! That is the important part.

Right now, I don't know but I might come back to Korea for sure. I don't know at all actually, but there is a good job possibility that I could get. At the same time, I don't know if I can though because then I will see this woman that I havel been seeing and will continue to see until I leave. Last night, was a night of truth and realized that I need to change my strong feelings and forget that I was ever in love with her even after two months. I can't really forget or change so easily, but I will have to. Pretty much it isn't possible for us in this culture with her being older and me being older and we are different people. And even if I do come back to Korea things won't change and she might move to Germany in the next three to six months. I would love for it to be possible, but I don't know that even if she ever could have feelings for me in that way. Last night, I didn't really sleep and got home at 2:30. I don't regret anything that has happened though and last night was very beautiful because we ended up talking for about an hour outside at this beautiful place with a beautiful view of the city and great weather.