I feel like I am about to lose my mind, have a nervous break down, and sometimes just want to give up everything for a while. . . this week is kicking my ass! I was doing okay or so I thought until yesterday when I did lose it a little bit and started crying at a work dinner at a nice Japenese restaurant. Today I did wake up though and felt better after a lot of encouragement and trying to think positive. Today even started and went better for the most part. Some of my friends here even came to my area for dinner, which was very nice, but I think my one friend felt sorry for me. Okay, so my boss told me to take a break during my dinner time and then 7:00 don't worry about it, Chris comes. So I thought so if I need to I can skip the 7:00 class too and even called my boss from the restaurant making sure this was okay. Well my friends took me to a a good restaurant and we had like Mongolian BBQ type stuff very closet the school. Well it was about 7:10 my fellow teacher sends me a text message in all caps that says, "WHERE ARE YOU??? CHARLIE SENT YOU ON BREAK ALMOST AN HOUR AGO. CHRIS NEEDS YOUR HELP!" What the hell! I texted him back and was like Charlie said it was okay, do you want me to come back. Well we finished and then I left right after that because he texted me again saying that I was taking too long of a break. I was a bit mad and frustrated and walked up to the school and apologized profusely again and started working again. Then I asked my coworker, so when is my break now and he was like "there is no set time right now, it is just kind of whenever there is time." I guess since we are short of teachers now. . . plus it was diary day. So I had to check all of their writings on the computer, plus all the extra paper versions which is almost impossible to finish. And they only want me to do this since I am a native speaker, which makes sense but Shit! I am so damn mad, I raced home tonight after work in a fury. I am trying to think positive and get through this and I am strong enough and will carry through. Sometimes it is just very hard and people don't seem to get it, even my Korean friend tonight at dinner didn't seem that empathetic. He was the one that texted me last night after I told him what was up, "you are a grown man" pretty much that I need to get over it! This is part of the process, experience of adjusting to a new culture, but right now it sucks! I am trying to do everything I know to stay positive and lean on God, but even small things are hards and seem to make me mad. I am hanging in there and it will be okay, I'll return to sanity soon!