I am learning a lot about myself I think here in Korea. Today was 200% better than yesterday and 1000% better than the day before! I felt better mentally, supported more at work, enjoyed most of my classes, and felt more confident and adequate. This felt very nice.

I have learned this week that culture shock isn't just apparent mentally but physically too. For the past week or so it seems like I have always had a constant headache that is worse at some times than others, but can almost be described as numbing at times. Also, my body seems very stiff a lot of the time and tense, I consider this to be part of the experience, I have never felt more alive and like an old man at the same time, haha! But enough complaining.

Today after work I went to visit the girl from Canada upstairs with the leg issue who can't work this week and probably next week too. I feel bad for her during the day she pretty much just stays in her apartment and sleeps because she cannot really walk around. I miss her at work, the other foreign teacher to talk to because all the Korean teachers are super stressed out!

Then my Korean friend called me the one that came for dinner with some guys last night, which was very nice. I sent him an email last night expressing my feelings and a lot of how I felt. Another email with a little bit of bitterness attached to it probably because he called me to see how I was doing, etc. I apologized for everything including last night. Then one of the other guys called me too and we talked for a while. I think they were all afraid of what I was going to do last night after I stormed off back to work after a quick good-bye on the street. Even after everything I still feel like it is hard for me to express myself fully to them about everything, is that make sense?

Tonight I was reading some in Psalms and just spending some time with God. Psalm 46 is one of those Psalms that has been relevant to my life several times in the past four to five years. Verses 10 and 11 especially:

Be still, and know that I am God;
I will be exalted among the nations,
I will be exalted in the earth.

The Lord Almighty is with us;
the God of Jacob is our Fortress.

It kind of told me that I need to slow things down and try to get control of my feelings and emotions somewhat because they can change like the wind. I need to focus on Him, who is never changing for my strength and comfort. I know that there will be times when I will feel like I am insane, and that is normal and I will accept it. I can, however, chose how I react to those times and will be working on that with everything I am learning in mind.