Everyone this post is a little serious, but I don't think it is serious enough to break my vow for this blog starting in 2010.

I just wanted to let anyone out there, who reads this blog, know that deciding to have a baby is not some decision to make lightly. (I am sure everyone knows that.) Our baby girl is 20 weeks old now and I have to say we are still exhausted and maybe even more exhausted now since the lack of sleep really catches up with you. She is sleeping right now, but not without her good fit for about 30 minutes before she'll take her bottle and then sleep. It is about 5:40 right now and she'll probably sleep till almost 4 AM and then she'll wake up like its a new day and ready to go. Then maybe sleep for 30 minutes to an hour sometime around 7 or 8. But wait. . . were you thinking she was going to sleep from now straight through to 4 AM, oh if we were only so lucky, no she'll probably wake up two if not three times before that to eat. We'll still waiting for those long stretches of sleep.

Don't get me wrong I love our baby daughter, she is probably the most beautiful baby in the world!! However, it is a lot of work and she does cause stress and fatigue a lot. She is starting to be able to sit up on her own now and will turn to a voice when she hears her name. She is starting to get a personality and act more grown up. As much as we wish she would cry less and not yell so loud and sleep better. . . it seems like she is growing up so fast, maybe too fast! She is going to be walking soon, and that just sounds exhausting in itself. And then on to preschool, then kindergarten, then a teenager, graduating from high school, going to college and leaving mom and dad! That just sounds all too crazy and fast to think about!

I have to say I have heard some good advice or comforting words from others. Like you should be glad your baby even sleeps or she is so gentle and happy (when we are in public of course - they don't see the other side) and general stuff like that. One person told me that the first baby is always hard because you have nothing to compare it too, so of course you think the baby cries a lot and you never sleep, etc., etc. That is a good point, we don't have anything to compare it to because we've never had a baby before so I guess we should be happy that she does sleep and so fourth.

Notice that the person told me the first baby is always hard, well let me tell you. . . before I was all about having a family and I thought oh yeah 3 or 4 kids, sure. NOT ANYMORE! I am like one is enough and I am not about to have any more, I mean if we were rich and everything, sure, maybe lets get to it! However, I don't know how we are going to afford this one especially when you think about how much college is going to cost for her in about eighteen years!! OH MY!! I am here to say that I am not planning on any more. . . . one is truly an amazing blessing in itself.

That wasn't too personal, right?? That was just a general feelings that any new father has and things he would talk about.