I am beginning to realize that life doesn't really get easier after university and you get a job and start making money. For me, I have realized since starting this whole thing and coming to Korea I have to constantly evaluate myself and where I am at and my priorities. I have to see what changes I can make for the better and what things I cannot change and just have to deal with those things and make the most out of it. I am so busy these days that life just seems to go. . . and I have to really try to enjoy every moment and be able to see how much I have achieved and where I have come from to this point. Especially by being in Korea I can see so many changes I have made in my life some by choice and others not by choice, they just sort of happened. I don't think I can really explain the depth of how much I feel like I have changed in the last almost five months since being here in Korea. My life is here in Korea though for the moment and it still sounds strange to say, but it feels almost normal. I am starting to realize that life is always going to be challenging and that I have to constantly evaluate the situation and make the best choices I can make and with God's direction of course for my life.

Yesterday, I went to the foreigners' cematary here in Seoul where a lot of missionaries, doctors, nurses, etc are barried. It is hard to explain why I felt the need to go there or how that made me feel and what I got from that. I think a lot, and it was important to me to see that and stand on that hallow ground. I really am not sure if I can explain that but it was a beautiful thing and feeling being there in this very beautiful small park area.

I also went to Seoul National University subway station yesterday because I wanted to hike up a mountain there. I couldn't find the mountain though or at least the trail where you hike up it, I could see the mountains of course. I walked maybe for forty minutes and finally just gave up and walked around the Seoul National University campus. One of the top universities in Korea there were a lot of young people there maybe getting ready for the semester to start and also there was some kind of graduation. It was beautiful in my opinion, and I took some nice pictures, but my Korean friends said that other universities are much more beautiful especially in Spring when the cherry blossoms come. Anyway, for the briefest time while walking there I had the same feelings I did when I went to KU for the first time when I was so excited and free ready to experience life! It also made me remember very happy times and good things like walking on campus with friends and talking enjoying the scenery. Many things I recalled, not like it was too long ago. . . but shortly after I felt very sad. It was incredible how sad I felt, I was very surprised but I realized that that part of my life is over in a sense and I will never feel so free and light like that again maybe. It made me feel old, I know that must be common, but for some reason that was so surprising yesterday how strong that felt.

Last night was a good night too, I hung out with my friend's high school friend that I met last weekend. I guess we are now friends though and we plus the girl he is dating went to dinner. She was very pretty. We ate, and then went to Namsan Tower where you can see all of Seoul from above very impressive, and then we went back to a place and ate some like dried fish and soup and drank sakke. It was a very good time I think.

This morning I met with my trainer at 8AM after getting not much sleep, but it was okay. I am going to try to exercize almost every day with the training schedule I have. Then I came back here and ate at McDonalds for breakfast and met two girls there, one was drunk. But she wouldn't stop talking to me and I sat with them while I ate because I am nice like that, it was entertaining needless to say. I probably won't see them again though, they work at a bar here in the area where I live, but I am not crazy about the party area here in my neighborhood.

Then I went to the Korean church and had a very good worship service and felt God's presence there. Then I had my small group Bible Study, which I really like and need in my life, I am greatful for that. I feel like that is one of the few places where I am very honest about my life and feelings and they can help and pray for me there. It also challenges me and at the same time I hope that they feel the same way that they can be honest and share, which I think we all do. I am very glad about that!

Tomorrow I will wake up at 5:15 and try to go to church every morning this week for the 6:30 service and then work out right after that. I am hoping to maybe be back here by 11:00 tomorrow morning and do some work related stuff on the internet before I go and of course eat.

There is more as always, but I think that is the important stuff that I think is worth sharing.