Buenas Noches!

I am at home again. . .before my semester officially starts on Wednesday with classes. I am leaving early Tuesday morning, however, to make it to practicum at the elementary school. The kids (or my kids) have been little demons lately. Its like they suddenly lost all respect for me only as a person! This is a little bit frustrating if you can imagine especially when trying to work with boys in group counseling settings. Oh well. . .something is going down in that neighborhood and its pretty concerning.

Anyway, so I am at home and its been the expected time here, pretty good for the most part but with its moments of course. Its actually been very nice and pleasant it almost feels like a nice long weekend with the family or how Christmas break should have felt more. I am trying to relax and its going pretty well, but I still can't catch up with my sleep here because no matter how tired I am, I can't sleep a lot of the time. And when I do I have weird dreams or terrible quit real nightmares that freak me out about dying or waiting to dye or running away from something so I don't dye or watching other people dye. Some wise people have told me that death is usually a sign that you are at a crossroads in your life. Death usually symbolizes the end of something or the end of that part of your life this seems to make sense since I am graduating in May right and have no clear direction yet. I know everyone wanted to know all of that, but what can I say I like to get things out and let you all know whats up with me!

I almost done with reading The Fountainhead by Ayn Rand. What an interesting thought provoking book, but long. I don't agree with a lot of the philosophy that comes out of the book but it definatley gives an interesting perspective on things. Like a discussion on what it really means, according to the book, to be selfious or selflous and which one is better. The characters are all very complicated and deep. . .I have been taking notes just for myself in the book the whole time I have been reading it. Interesting read to say the least that in a nutshell is about an architect.