SO. . .

So how am I doing? Okay, nothing really new to report for me, but read on there are a few suprises probably - - -

First, The girl and I are not dating. Which is fine I am the one that took the step to clear that up this morning over breakfast at a restaurant (so there is no room to think something else there). Anyway, we started talking about past relationships we both have been in. I kind of felt like that was where the conversation going on. But for me past relationships that is a difficult question. I have not been in a lot of "actual" relationships, but have been in some relationships that I feel like I should count. I mean some of them have ended just like a real relationship I've had the good, bad, the ugly, and the real ugly! Anyway, so I just said at one point "we are just good friends right?" Yes, we were on the same page but do not feel like it would be healthy or needed to back off from the friendship. I agree, and we agreed to be completely honest if anything does come up or develop. Okay, so I am being pretty direct on this one with my readers, so everyone always remember NO names and keep things anonymous in your comments! But anyway as far as this issue is concerned I think I was just trying to hard to convince myself that I could like her like her as more than friends. It is not the time, the place, or the right person for me I do not think. We value each other's friendship a lot and that will not change. Enough on that subject.

I went home on Tuesday morning and came back on Wednesday night. Everyone was really busy, surprise surprise! My mom was finishing her research paper for her master's class and then had to drive to her work the next day early which is about two hours away. My dad took an exam for his real estate license the first night which took most of the time. I was content though reading Cien anos de soledad. It was home. . . I found out that my brother will not be coming up for graduation. My mom was like, "I didn't think it would be a big deal and its more convenient for him to stay with the car space and to watch the dog. Unless its a big deal to you." Come on - - my brother has came up here like three times maybe in four years and he is not even going to make it to graduation. I know we aren't that close, but what the hell is that all about?! Wednesday morning I had breakfast with dad and of course he attempted to stress me out. Then we went to visit my grandma in the hospital who is going through cheamo for stomach cancer, not working that well. She is sick and I don't know how much she was actually there in the conversation. The next and probably last option for her is a blood marrow transfusion. I don't know God can heal her, praying for a miracle, but at the same time she could be dying. Then I went to the grocery store with my dad who bought $170 worth of stuff at the grocery store!!! So, this pretty much concludes the highlights of my trip home. I will see my parents and grandparents when they come up on Saturday for graduation.

I borrowed some movies from home that I brought back here to watch. I will provide my opinions of the two I have watched so far. Last night I watched Elizabethtown
Today, however, I watched a movie that I don't know if I would reccomend to anyone really. Match Point a movie that I was excited about seeing and my mom was too I think that is why it was at my house. The movie was kind of boring, but it is highly disturbing. Like I guess it was provocative in some way, but calling it a sex thriller, well its not what I expected. Not that I was hoping just for sex, but anyway. The movie is about a guy that falls in love or lusts after his brother-in-law's ex-fiance and this is in London, rich people. Well, to cut it short the guy gets the girl he has having an affair with pregnant, but him and his wife can't get pregnant. The problem is that he does not love his wife, he is bored but does not want to give up his upscale life, his very upscale life because her dad is pretty much "the man" or his boss. Well, the wife does get pregnant and he ends up killing the other girl and one of her older neighbors in the building. The very scary part is that at the end of the movie he gets away with it! Like the last scene is everyone at their flat overlooking London and their new baby boy right out of the hospital. He is looking out the window and guilt pretty much and the wife comes over and kisses him and is like I bet you the next one is a girl! There were quit a few references and parallels to Dostoevsky in this movie that were pretty good and right on. But all in all afterwards I felt utterly sick after watching this movie! I am sorry if I ruined it for anyone, go ahead and watch it.

On a much lighter note I watched the series finale of Will and Grace tonight. I was generally happy with how it ended. But of course me being weird I always thought Will and Grace should've been together like completely. For some reason I always thought that somehow Will would end up being "straight" in love with Grace after everything. Oh well, it still ended nice though. I think that a lot of the show was way too far out there for me at times and all of that but it was in general entertaining. I think it did a good job of sometimes depicting real life and society to some degree for a comedy sit-com. Especially the arguments between Will and Grace. But anyway. . . Its over there isn't much to say about it.

I still don't have a job by the way just so everyone knows. The agency has not called me this week after I called them last week and they were still deciding. They said they would call this week I am guessing if they have not called yet, I don't have it. I'll call tomorrow though I guess.

I am having lunch with my friend from Costa Rica tomorrow - - after that I am not sure when I'll see her again especially if I don't stay around here. Things are starting to become more real at this point that I am graduating and a whole new chapter of life is going to start. Wow - that was deep!