Hi, it is late here now about 12:55 on Friday night. I just got back from my girlfriend's parents' house tonight, which I have been going to everyday now for maybe the past two weeks. I am never at home, I feel like this could be some kind of test. Tonight, I was totally disgusted when the mom brought back live octopus, which they know I don't like. She cut them up and with their legs still moving put them on the table while her father and her ate them. I couldn't even really look at it, my girlfriend got very upset. But what can you do??

Other that with work and everything else going on, including that I am pretty sure I only have about six weeks left of doing. Then church, and studying Korean, everything. . . I am quit exhausted. And on top of that I can't really talk to anyone about the situation because we are still not really open at church about us. . . which is very frustrating STILL(which is ridiculous - I know) because of her parents.

There is so much going on. . . I can't even think straight anymore and my body feels like a 50 year old man instead of a 25 year old in his peak. Lately, as sad as it is I almost wish I could just get sick and have to stay in the hospital for a couple of days just so I could get some rest and a little more attention. I am tired of sometimes always working or trying to impress someone, and having to do something to prepare for whatever. My girlfriend feels the same way, but. . . . what can we do??

It is just hard sometimes to believe that God is going to let us be happy and it will be sooner than later. After working so hard, and trying to do what is best and right and getting God's blessing isn't that enough?? Please don't worry about me, even though I feel like crying every single day. . .

We will be happy soon. . . just sometimes it is hard and frustrating to not be able to get the happiness that we feel like we deserve. God will make that in His time!