Yeah. . .I don't know. . . GRRR!

Okay, so remember the girl I have talked about before and in a previous post talked about how we had to talk about us. And then everything was okay, that we are just good friends at least right now. Well, we acknowledged that we are open and can talk about it, but I don't know. I hate to say it, but this girl likes me a lot I think and I haven't really acted any different about it. For example, we talk a lot through e-mail and kind of know each other pretty well. So for example, today I was working the benefit for the BSW (Bachelors of Social Work) student group. We did a giant garage sale and a kids carnival that was kind of dampered by the rain and weather. Anyway, she called me and told me that she was going to bring me lunch. Well, she did and that was very nice and then tonight I pretty much went with her to this banquet at the church for the student ministry's partners. She gave her testimony and did very well, and everyone was dressed up. She looked good. But we talked, you know almost like on a date or something. It was kind of awkward too because all my friends in the ministry were mainly working and serving, haha. I helped out a lot afterwards clean up even though I didn't need to and worked all day at the benefit anyway. But I don't know, but I can tell she is in to me. . . with the way she looks at me sometimes, to the friendly touches, etc. Not to mention that I am sure we are creating the picture to a lot of other people that we must be together by arriving and leaving places together. (which that part shouldn't matter because it doesn't matter what other people think, right? But then again I am blogging about it, so maybe it does.) The question is do we need to talk again and definitely keep that line of communication open so we know exactly what the other person is thinking? The thing is I really like her as a person and like I said she is attractive. The only issue is that makes me feel superficial since this is the kind of thing people on TV comedy shows talk about. You know where they have a check list or a thing doesn't work out with someone because there is one particular fault or quirk to them that the person doesn't like. This is me with her, there is one thing about her that I cannot really stand that could be changed, but I cannot be like I don't think I can be with you until you change or improve this aspect of you. NO Way in Hell! I do not feel like I have really ever mastered what the most appropriate least hurtful thing to do is in situations like this or how to prevent things from digressing this far. Whatever ~ obviously this proves to everyone how complicated of a person I really am on so many different levels!