El verdad. . . is that I am feeling very tired, frustrated, upset, even angry, and sad right now, but okay!

Here are some of my reasons:
1) I pretty much went the whole day at my internship through a training meeting and everything else without caffeine. At the end of the day I finally gave in and asked some staff at the school if they had any coke and they were like yeah downstairs in the vending machine. They ended up giving me 60 cents, thank God! But I had a headache for a lot of the day and one coke was one of the highest moments of my day. . . how pittiful!

2) I missed the last episode of my favorite telenovela en espanol, se llama Inocente de Ti. I have watched it all the way untill the last episode which was tonight. . . and hopefully my friend was able to videotape it for me. I am going to get the tape and watch it tomorrow night I guess, but I was so upset that I couldn't watch the last episode tonight. I had to go to a meeting called "Watch D.O.G.S" at the school where my internship is. D.O.G.S stands for Dads of Great Students just so you all know. By the way I hope in Inocente de Ti all ended well for Florecita y Julio Alberto, una historia muy bonita!

3) And maybe the biggest reason: is today I brought up the issues that I have been having at my internship in a indirect/direct way up with my field instructor. You know I met with my field liaison the person above my instructor on Tuesday night, the other student. I felt like we made great progress and the internship would start to go better. She suggested to tell my field instructor that she sent us back our Learning Contracts and that she wanted them more specific and we should put in our ideas. Okay, great idea. . . because it makes it sound like the field liaison is behind all of this and not us the students. Well, I told my field instructor about the learning contract this morning and she like rolled her eyes. She was like why do we have to change them now they are pretty much the same ones we have been sending in for the past five or six years. She was not positive about this at all. Then I later told her the suggestion I thought of that the field liaison supposedly told me to offer. This idea is one that I am kind of passionate about and that is to write a letter and send it home to the parents that have kids in groups in both Spanish and English. This would help my Spanish and plus it is getting the parents still more active with their kids and whats going on. What was her response, well right off the bat she goes, "We don't invite parents. . . we've never done that. We don't want to or like to do that or something." She went on to explain if parents come to us or want to talk about whatever, then pretty much they come to us. She acts like what goes on in our groups should not be discussed outside of them, which I agree about protecting the kids in everything. But we aren't talking about real deep or personal issues with the kids, especially in group settings. GRRR! I am like why the heck not!? Isn't our mission about reaching out to better individuals, families, and the community! The saga continues. . .

I have so much to do!