Like I said before I read another book by Nicholas Sparks, which was Dear John. It took me about six weeks, I read big chunks at a time but because of everything going on wasn't able to finish it sooner.

My opinion was that it is a beautiful, but at the same time a was horrible book! There was too much loss and grief in this story and the ending wasn't exactly happy, but was in a way. At times I had a hard time reading this book because it was so sad and painful at points.

I told myself several times in my mind that I wasn't going to finish it because it was just too much with everything else going on in my life, but I did. I guess I am glad I did, but sometimes books leave me with strong feelings and emotions. Granted Nicholas Sparks is not like a famous author or will probably go down as acclaimed in the literature world, but the stories seems real enough to me.

That's it.

I have wanted to blog for a while now. . . but when I want to I never know what to say or have anything to say and when I have something to blog about I don't have the time!

There doesn't seem to be enough time in the day, week, month, year and on and on for everything. However, that is just an excuse and also that is not a good attitude. I should be living for now and living like it could be my last minute or day or whatever. However, I really find it hard to take that attitude sometimes when I have all this work to do for my job, school work, my family and "me" time.

My wife and I study the Bible together when we can, and sometimes this is 3-4 times a week and other times it could be once every two weeks. We are in Ephesians right now and usually do a chapter each time, read it and then talk about what stuck out to us and why and pray. This has been a really rewarding experience now and before also, but it is hard to find the time and even desire to do it at times. I think God almost feels like we have to for Him and for life in general because it seems to make things clearer and better for all involved when you focus on Him!

I am also going through a personal Advent devotional this year that I found on the INternet and downloaded for free from some Lutherans. I don't go to a Lutheran church and never have, but they are Christian just like me. Today was the start of the third week and the message in this devotional was about who do you trust. We should trust Jesus because He can help us with ANY problem that we have and wants us to lean on him with everything. I believe that I do this, but then when I thought about it, do I really do this?? When I was working on my 15 page paper last week, doing all my progress notes for my job, taking care of my daughter and being a husband do I always think about doing those for Jesus and the ones I love or because duty calls me to??

Give it all to Jesus!